I’ll Not ENTER That Now

I’ve been officially retired for one day now. Last night and everything the Facebook congratulations have been frustrating The party. I’ve also gotten a lot of teasing about retiring for the second time. So, I have to set the record straight on that. Returning to Northrop Grumman 7-1/2 years ago as a full-time worker after being retired for 7-1/2 years really helped save my life. I have been working all along – sometimes from your home and otherwise traveling great distances by car to do my fundraising job. The ongoing work was sporadic and all that generating was hard. And yes it didn’t give me enough social interaction to keep my mind off the suicide death of my oldest son.

I needed full immersion and going back to working proposals full time provided that. I had fashioned to get up at a certain time every day, I had developed to shower and dress in business clothes everyday rather than lolling is PJs, and I had the opportunity to work with lots of people.

Also, the working job itself remaining me virtually no time to wallow in my own grief. From when I returned on board I had been consumed with the business of working on teams to create documents that had to be promptly delivered each and every time. And, putting myself into that pressure cooker was the best thing I could have done to allow me to endure the sadness in my own life. Even coming back as a service provider wasn’t enough.

I needed to have the assurance that I’d have that pressure day in and day out for as long as I needed it. ONCE I finally decided 8 weeks ago that enough will do – after all I’m taking place 70 years of age – I still acquired the sensation that leaving my job could be very risky. If I let myself I could get back to the wallowing easily.

  • Deduct some or most of the cost of long-term care insurance for you and your spouse
  • 6-min virtual tour
  • Remain Competitive
  • Illegal Drugs
  • Take the self-employed medical health insurance deduction, if you qualify
  • Define Your Goals

Even so, I made the decision I had developed to do it. I want some time for myself and with my husband. We are going to travel, and I have poems and books to create. An almost 24/7 job just doesn’t support that. Plus, just how many years may it continue at that speed at my age group? I’m still prepared to look as a contractor but not on a complete time basis back. Given that it’s almost 11 years since my boy’s death, I believe I’m strong enough to go along without the full-time job crutch.

I think I understand how to defend against falling back into the wallowing. And, I’m sure the diversions I’ve assigned myself shall help. So, for you readers out there, please know I certainly didn’t plan it this way. I never thought once I retired in 1995 that I’d ever hire back. But, life is filled with surprises – the right and some not so good. I’ll not get into that now. That could only bring on the wallowing.